20 things that give me anxiety that probably shouldn't

This past week was my first full week without two hour delays and/ or a snow day since January.
It was both rough and exactly what my students and I needed: the normalcy, routine, and schedule felt SO nice.
But of course it was the reason for the lack of blogging.
Hopefully soon I can figure out more of a schedule of when I'll post, but for now, they're sporadic. And I'm over it.

Moving forward.

I have always had miserable anxiety. 

However, only within the past 6 months did I discover that not everyone worries/has anxiety like I do. I always assumed the way I worry was natural for everybody. 

NAHT. 

But thankfully through the years I have gotten better at dealing with it. 

And only recently have I discovered the power in laughing at what a disaster I am. 

So today I have a list of 20 things that give me anxiety that probably shouldn't 

I wish I was kidding. 

1// Complaining at a Restaurant 

Yes, I asked for no tomatoes, but no I will not complain that they are on my sandwich

2//Returning Clothes/Anything

I'd rather just keep the item

3//Fog

Screw snow

At least you can see the road

4//Sending Emails

Do I sound like an idiot? Is my grammar correct? Shit, what should the subject be? 

Oh, and don't forget to read the 10 more times before clicking send

5//Checking Out at the Store

The pressure of putting my card/change/receipt away quick enough before the person behind me moves forward kills me 

6//Being Early

7//Being On Time

8//Being Late
again, wish I was kidding

9//My Anxiety

10//Parking

11//Meeting New People
#introverttothemax

12//Going to the Grocery Store/Panera in my Hometown 
The risk is not worth the reward

13//Writing Thank You Cards
What if my handwriting isn't centered?
Does this sentence sound weird?
Shit, throw it away and start a new one

14//Being Asked What Time Is It
Did I take too long to look at my watch?

15//Leaving my Apartment 
Did I turn my curling iron off?
Did I lock the front door?

16//Laundry 
I'm that psychotic that I read the "how to wash" tag on every piece of clothing before I put it into the washing machine

17//Lighting & Blowing Out Candles
But what if that tiny flicker that I think went out comes back and sets my apartment on fire?

18//Planning My Outfits for the Week
But what if my students remember that I wore this necklace 3 weeks ago?

19//Picking A Lipstick Color
Will this match?
Is it too aggressive?
Is it too subtle?
Does it fit with the season?
To add gloss or not to add gloss...

20//Clicking Publish
I mean...
doesn't reading 1-19 make 20 pretty obvious

snow day necessities

Today marks my fifth snow day. 

Since January 5th, I have had five days off because of *bad* weather.

You see, any normal state would close because of actual bad weather, but not Maryland. 

They're like, Oh, were getting an inch on Saturday? Might as well close school on Monday! 

That's a complete exaggeration and yet there is some truth to it. 

Today's snow day was because of an ice storm we had yesterday. Like during the day on Sunday. Nothing fell last night, but I guess it all refroze. When my friend Casey, whom I teach with, texted me that we were closed, I became that teacher who was upset at what this does to my weekly plans. 

She of course put me right back into my place of not complaining about no school. 

Below are two pictures from I believe the second and third snow days. When actual snow fell. 

Good thing you can still see the grass! 

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So now that I'm going on my fifth one I figured I'd share my necessities, because how might you're day go on without knowing my snow day necessities???

Kidding. 

I decided to show you because I'm bored out of my mind. 

1. My Knitting

Which I bought on my second snow day because the roads were fine. 

2. An Eye Mask

To block out the sun while I cat nap in order to pass time. 

3. Andy Cohen's Book, The Andy Cohen Diaries 

I got the book for Christmas, but haven't had time to read it since I've been reading my puppy book. And then my friend told me I had to start it because he talks about getting a dog and it is FAB. 

My favorite quote thus far: "Another two-hour massage after the show. Total luxury. Again I lay there wondering what the fuck that dog is going to do while I get it a massage. Sleep? Watch? Bark?" 

Remove the whole massage part and insert "do anything" and that is my exact thought. 

4. My iPad

To watch Desperate Housewives with, obviously. 

This is my second time going through the series and I forgot how effing amazing it is. 

Such a classic. 

And because we all know that I had time to stage the photo above, here is all of it in its natural habitat. 

All scattered on my bed within reach. 

Just where I like it. 

Phew, now you my proceed with the rest of your day and I apologize for taking your last 3 minutes. 

I'm off to watch desperate housewives while I knit so things are getting pretty cray if I do say so myself.