Pessimistic Polly: I'm BAAAACCCKKKK

Well look who is back, starting a blog, for the 18th million time. If there ever was an award for someone who starts, stops, starts, stops, starts, and then stops blogging, I'd win.

I created my blogger profile in January of 2012.

And today is January 15, 2015.

How do you say, hot mess?

For the 5 people, at max, who read Pessimistic Polly in its prime (aka for 2 weeks), I've decided "she" needed to come back. I've missed her. Plus, a few of my besties have started blogging and I. Am. Jealous. There is just something different about having your own space that I was dying to get back.

Now, back in October of 2013 (woah), when I decided blogging was a bit too much to handle, I simply made Pessimistic Polly private. I never blogged from "her," but she was always there. Jump forward to April-May 2014 when I started applying for jobs and graduated from college, I full blown deleted her. I was beyond paranoid (It's my fabulous anxiety.) that my future employers were going to find my private blog, read a post about my fall wish-list where I possibly cursed, and be like, "Nope, can't hire her to teach our youth!" So needless to say, she was gone.

So here I am today, blogging from a fabulous new design! Truthfully, I cam across these fab blogger templates (www.designerblogs.com) and I had to have one for myself. So here we are. Blogging. Again.

Now before I took the plunge and purchased the template (about an hour ago), I decided I needed to make a list of things/mindsets that I will change this time around in hopes that Polly will last longer than two months. So without further adieu, here are my ideas:

Yes, I am cliche, but it is so true. I need to blog for myself. The first time around, I was so into blogging for everyone else. And not the people that I knew were reading my blog, but for the people that were potentially reading my blog. I was too obsessed with putting on a show, if you will. So this time around, it's all for me.

Again, old Polly was dedicated towards blogging for show. And thus it became a chore. This time around, I'm blogging as an outlet from my perffectt life.

Hashtag sarcasm.

I teach 12 year olds math and 9th and 10th graders journalism. I need ALL the outlets.

This time around, I refuse to limit myself to certain topics for fear of possible posts not fitting with "my" image. No holds bar over here.

(^ is that the saying? Too tired to google and double check. I'm going with it.)

THIS ONE.

Old Polly was a 5-days a week blog.

Not this time around.

Again, I teach 12 year olds math and 9th and 10th graders journalism.

Nobody got time for 5-days a week blog!

I'm blogging whenever I can. The end.

Jokes aside, I genuinely hope I can blog for longer than what seems like a minute. I have the most amount of envy for bloggers who have years of posts to look back and reflect on. Someday we'll get there Polly there.

Emphasis on someday.

Phew, you with me?

Ugh, I'm so glad to be back.